When I was just a baby I was baptized as a Catholic and from my childhood to
grade school I lived a “fun” life and made some friends. I wasn’t in sin and was
too young to understand this world so I went about it “freely”. However I did
have house chores, and if I forgot to do them, my dad would yell at me. This I
didn’t like at all, so I grew scared of my dad, and learned to obey him.
Then I was thrown in school, I always had a true hatred for the place. I just
knew that it was not where I needed to be. Well, over the years I made some so
called “friends” who about 3 years later introduced me to adulterous sins and
porn; we were only in 4th grade and we already knew so much about sin. Truly
these places were evil. At first we all thought it was disgusting how people
would sin like this, but it didn’t take long for these satanic thoughts to grow.
By 6th grade (12 to 13 yrs old) we all had ungodliness pounded in us and many
people were already in major sin.
In 7th grade I decided to look at porn for myself for the first time. I won’t go
into much detail but I was in a sick spiritual state… I also met another so
called “friend” in 7th grade; he lived close to me and was perverted to the
core. From him I learned about homosexuality and other atrocities…
Basically over the course of my 7th grade year I had committed about every sin
on the face of the earth except for drinking. One day when I was little I went
to a “monster truck” show with my dad and I thought his beer was my soda and so
I drank it and almost threw up. Since then I have always hated alcohol. At this
time I wasn’t even 15 years old. One day my parents suggested I invite some so
called “friends” over… so I did. When they found out my dad had beer they
suggested we steal some but I refused. Eventually I gave into peer pressure. I
only took a sip; the beer still had the same disgusting taste that I remembered.
Also during 7th grade I got into football.
All through this time I was going to a Catholic school. It didn’t teach me
anything, nor did it help me in any way to break free of sin. I learned to pray
to “saints” such as Mary, and in 7th grade as an attempt to break free of sin I
prayed the full rosary… soon after I finished I felt really good but then for
the first time I heard the voice of YAHUSHUA saying “Why do you pray to Mary?” I
knew what the voice meant, it meant that there is ONE GOD, and there is ONE
prayer intercessor, and this is YAHUSHUA ha MASIACH, the only way to YAHUVEH for
all others have sinned.
After 7th grade we got a new football coach for our school and he was a newborn
Christian, who was doing his best to walk in grace with the LORD. So he started
a program at our school called “FCA”, a christen youth program where Bible study
meetings are taught after or before school. 8th grade year was not as bad
sinfully, but I still looked at porn every weekend.
After 8th grade, 9th grade began, and the coach who did FCA continued to do it.
Over the summer he learned a lot, such as speaking in Holy tongues and other
things. He taught me about them, and I believed them completely, only problem
was he did not see that satan counterfeited everything YAH does, so I was never
taught the danger of demonic tongues.
After 9th grade, in the summer, sins got bad. I was home with my sisters (who
normally didn’t wake up until 12 o’clock in the afternoon because they stayed up
so late) so I had the house to myself in the mornings, so porn sins got
extremely bad. Well eventually my sisters started watching a show called “A
Haunting”. This show was about real demons that would scare people, kind of like
a haunted home.
After watching this show with my sisters a few times I grew really scared of
demons, and decided to turn to “faith” to keep me from being scared. One day I
opened up the Bible and I can’t remember exactly what verse I saw, but it was in
Psalms and it said something like this “You are in the hand of the LORD, nothing
will ever harm you, as you are in the pasture grazing from the grass and growing
in the Word of the LORD.”
When I saw this I thought to myself, “Wow this book really knows me.” I now know
this was our IMMAYAH’s Anointing that opened the Bible for me. Why SHE did I do
not know because I was in much sin.
Over time I started to try to turn to “speaking in tongues” but I would not lay
down my sin. At first I couldn’t speak it, but then one day while on myspace I
saw an add that said “all about the Holy Spirit” and I decided to click on it.
It said that it had to download before I could read it and I thought to myself,
“that is fine” while I was waiting for it to download I figured, “I think I
should try speaking in tongues” so I tried… And it worked; I spoke in an odd
language. However this was demonic tongues and I shook all over as I spoke.
While I was doing this (it only lasted for about 8 seconds) I thought, “wow,
this is awesome”. Then the document was finished… and I opened it up and started
to read it, and it described the difference between demonic manifestations and
the HOLY SPIRIT. I was scared, I knew now I was going to hell, I had a demon
possess me and I was so scared of going to hell, I jumped out of my flesh and
laid the sin down in about 4 weeks, but now I still fight it today, as it says
in many of YAH’s Prophecies, “Satan will try to rebuild old strongholds.”
I decided to search the internet for answers, and eventually YAH led me to
amightywind.com where for the first time I found out how to be saved, it is a
loving and obedient relationship with YAHUSHUA ha MASIACH, not a religion.
Now I am here 8 months later, typing my Testimony…. regretting the sin I did,
because it makes the path no easier, but I am grateful that YAHUSHUA ha MASIACH
saved me, because without HIM, I would be in hell, forever…